X High School

"You where a good sister too" I hug her and flip a page that had a title, It read Emily. I read the page "I have found love. My heart is healed but she also feels pain....She says she feels dead. I don't like seeing her in pain. She wants it to end.....I feel the same"

"hmmm..." I said. "But why would he do that? He's knows it would break our hearts, I even told him not to and he said he wont!"

I thumb through the book to find another entry. "Dad came home.....now my life will get even worse....he will yell at me for not doing well in school...beat me.....he will beat Eliza for sure.......sorry dad I know you meant good but......you pushed me over the edge...."

"Oh my..." I said.

I sigh and look at a page that said "Bullies" I look at the names and I gasp as some of them are my friends. "That's why he was scared when Marcie and Lilly came over. I sniff a little and read a entry called "Love". I @_read about how a girl pretended to like him so she could find out his secrets. "Eliza.....dad thinks they will hold a service at the school. Can you speak with me about Onee-chan?"

"Sure, Ami" I said to her. I hugged her tightly and said "This must feel very hard for you...losing someone very close to you.."

I nod as she hugs me. "Well judging from his diary....he was close to you...He called both of us Ani-chan........look" I point at the word that he used to describe us. "Why didn't I see this....he would be still here if I seen it."

"I feel guilty...maybe if I didn't cut myself he would still be here...." I said as I stared at the diary.

I look at Eliza and ask "Why? What does that have to do with him killing himself?"

"...I don't know...I-I just feel so guilty..." I said depressingly

I hug her and say softly "It's not your fault.....it's the bullies fault....I wonder what their reaction will be."

"I just hope they will care about this..." I said.

"They will.....if not.......we have to tell them that they have his blood on their hands......They will always know that....trust me..." I hug her a little more and then get some tea.

I looked at Ami and said to her "I know it feels bad to lose your brother...but I'll try my very hardest to make both you and father happy, ok?"

(Gonna do a time skip to the next day)

I walked down the hall with my head down. No one said a word, not even a piep. I enter the class room to see my friend Marcie waiting for me. She tries to say sorry but I just curse her out. She nods and leaves. I wait for any of the bullies to say sorry but they didn't come. Then the 10th grade english teacher came up to me. From the diary I know that he trusted her. "I'm sorry for your lose, Ami...." I sigh and put my head on my desk.

I walked to class and I just saw everyone starring at me. I didn't know what to do nor say. I sat down and looked at the empty chair where Dustin always sits at. The teacher walked towards me and gave me a pat on the back and said "Sorry..." I nodded and laid my head on my desk, thinking of the memories I had with Dustin.

The morning thing goes like usual. The only new thing is that they talk about Dustin's and Emily's death. I snort "And now you guys notice that people where treating both of them bad?"

As class began, someone handed me a note with my name on it. Inside, it said: "Sorry for your loss." I recognized the hand-writing, for it was one of the bullies that bullied me, dustin and Emily. I wrote back, saying "It's tragic, but they're in a better place now..."

My next class was worse. This time the people pretended like it didn't happen. I then get a note passed that said "Hey "Ane-chan how is your brother?" I crush the note and throw it at the grinning boy.

I walked into the next class, but I was introduced to one of the bullies who said "Well, I guess your lil lover is gone now, HA!" All I did was that I went to my desk, sat down, laid my head on it and listen to the teacher.

I sit there the whole period with my head on my desk. Usually the teacher would ask me to pay attention but this time around he didn't. I still got a bunch of notes pocking fun at my brother's death. I decided to keep some when we have that mock funeral thing in a week or so.

As I went to my locker, it was filled with notes about Dustin and Emily's death. The notes were all just insults and stuff. I could definitely see that not many people cared about Dustin nor Emily's death. I locked my locker up and went to the next period.

I sigh as the people who laugh at my brother's suicide. In my next class it didn't really change. Eventually. I ask if I can go to the restroom. The teacher nods as I run out of the class. I slump against a wall and start to cry.

I forgot my books in the locker so I asked if I can get them. My teacher said yes and I walked out of the classroom. As I went to my locker, I saw Ami crying. I kneeled next to her, hugged her and tried to calm her down.

I feel Eliza hugging me as I sob into my hands. "I-I can't b-believe t-this....it's like, like they did nothing and Dustin like never walk the face of the earth"